好累...

Woah it have been almost a year since I last blogged?! Implying that my life for the past one year was really very very boring. =.= Indeed, uni life is tough and boring. Honestly I do not have time to join any CCA.. And for this sem I decided to work part time so 24 hours a day really not enough at all!! T.T Or I am really sucks at time management.

Just came back from hometown last week after cny celebration and it is normal that I am still suffering from homesick. Came across this article yesterday and it totally describe what is in my mind. I feel like crying while reading it on the train and I couldn't help but to read it few more times. I believe all the foreign students will have the same feeling as me. Actually what bothers me the most is the financial difficulties me and my family undergoing now. I feel like I am the one who should be blamed because of my selfish decision to study overseas.. I hope we can pass all these obstacles soon and I will not forget how much my parents sacrifices for me. 

Feeling sick right now but NO. U CAN'T FALL SICK!! Stay strong and must study hard MUN EE!!

Btw this is the article I talking about.

http://mp.weixin.qq.com/s?__biz=MjM5MTA3OTYwMA%3D%3D&mid=200010616&idx=1&sn=25728322b8bcb969827d903da345398d&scene=2&from=timeline&isappinstalled=0#rd

献给所有留学在外的我们

其实我们都是英雄

你是不是也在手里攥着飞往国外的机票跟护照的时候强忍着内心的最真实的情绪,不敢去抱一下含着眼泪的妈妈,反而笑着对家人说,放心吧,我可以的,然后一个人推着行李头也不回的走进去.

你是不是也因为一个人独自刚到国外,而一个人忍受着思念,孤单.每天都在跟国内的朋友们聊QQ,你突然发现那些在国内的日子那么精彩,而现在却显得那么的苍白.一个人上学,吃饭,买菜,逛街.一个人租房子,搬家,办保险,递签证的材料.用一种不是自己母语的语言努力的去讲.在看到国内的朋友在QQ上问你,最近怎么样的时候,突然不知道该怎么样回答,你好吗,好像不是那么好,你不好吗,可你真的很好吗,因为你我都不知道该怎么样解释才能被对方消化.

你是不是也开始算计起了生活,去超市买的东西都是挑最便宜的买,因为要花钱的地方很多,房租,水电费,电话费,偶尔还想去下个馆子或者给自己买件新衣服.

你的周围是不是也开始行走着各种各样的人,白的,黑色,棕的.生活里,课堂上,都能体现出文化的差异,从之前的争论,辩解,到现在的忍气吞声.

你是不是也因为熬夜写作业,赶论文,而在打工回家的路上睡过头而走路回家.被打工的店里的老板骂却也只能保持微笑.手就算被烫伤也只能用冰敷着熬到晚上回家一个人涂药.

你是不是也见惯了各种各样的分手的异地恋.主角可能是你,也可能是你的朋友,你想爱一个人,也想被一个人爱.可是看到周围都充斥着二三流的小暧昧时候,你又望而却步了.

你是不是周围也有这样的,她们不再是来时的模样,不再素颜,不再穿着平底鞋,不再留着黑色的直发,不再背着双肩的书包.那些家里有钱的可以每天不打工,可以买很多的名牌,可以整天泡夜店.可是你在心里告诉自己,不要忘记了自己的初衷,不要丢失了那个最真实的自己.

你是不是也发现出国后,发现能够一起玩的人很多,但是交心的却很少.这里的友情能承受住平淡,却承受不了风雨.被那些流言蜚语击中的时候却百口莫辩,一个人背井离乡的遭受各种人情冷暖，接受各种世故做作的所谓的“友情”.

你是不是也因为很多困难,一个人哭过,挣扎过,压力大的快疯掉.这时候,你就当做是上天给自己成长的一个机会,不管什么困难,当你迈过,却发现是那么的简单,你会庆幸当初自己的坚持是对的.你是不是也在生病或者受伤的时候,强忍着不告诉爸妈 ,只为了让海的那边的他们安心，自己一个人吃药,躲在被子里.每次看到从国内打来的电话都会怕,你害怕是不是家里发生了什么事情,知道年迈的爷爷奶奶生病的消息,却只能一个人在房间哭.因为你无能为力.

你是不是也开始不按时吃饭,每天都习惯了吃泡面,或者是便当.偶尔自己做了一次菜,可是却怎么也做不出在家里妈妈做的饭菜的味道,你开始想家,想吃妈妈做的糖醋排骨,红烧肉.特别是在外面吃饭时,看到邻座一家人围在一起热闹的吃饭,这种情绪变的尤其强烈.

你是不是也因为学校跟春节赶到一起,而不能回国,这时候,你是不是总在在幻想着家人们坐在一起吃着瓜子,围着电视前等着看春晚,外面传来鞭炮声,手机开始一条条的接受到那些拜年信息的那些场景

你是不是也在某次回国,当别人问你什么时候开学的时候,你会不自觉的说什么什么时候回哪儿哪儿,而不是当初说的去哪儿哪儿.你突然清醒,原来你是在那儿不是要待一周,也不是一年,你是在那儿生活,到底还要多久,也许连你都不知道,这个时候,突然分不清自己到底是归人还是过客.

你是不是也在傍晚一个人散步,耳机里听着自己喜欢的音乐,看着周围似熟悉似陌生的街景,跟天色渐渐的变暗亮起暖黄色的路灯的时候,自己的心突然就沉沦了下去. 

我们其实才刚刚二十出头,有的人甚至更小,我们可以跟父母家人撒娇,可以告诉他们我们所承受的一切,可是,我们不能这样做,不管这条路是不是我们自己选择的,可是既然踏上了,我们就要不顾一切的去承受并解决在这条路上遇到的阻碍.为了父母家人的期望,为了自己的梦想,乐观微笑的继续坚持下去.

某天清晨,突然的醒来,看着镜子里的自己,多么希望那些记忆就像是自己虚构的一样, 厨房里传来妈妈炒菜的声音并不停的大声的喊你起床,你蒙着被子说,再让我睡一会儿,电视机里传来早间新闻的那个主播的声音,阳光透着窗帘照进了房间.

多么希望这一切都是场梦.……

Hi~~

Hiiiiii OMG I am only back to blogging after so long.... Maybe more than a month? Haha! :P

Alright. So my life was real happening for the past one month. I WENT CNBLUE CONCERT!!!!!!! Ok, it was definitely an awesome one!! I am now recovering slowly from the post-concert-withdrawal-illness!! HAHAHA! I am not going to share how awesome and fantastic the concert was because I know I can't stop sharing once I started!! Just wanted to say CNBLUE REALLLYY DAEBAK!!! Their live performances was so great that it makes me considering going for their concert in Msia this coming Aug!! :))

But this is a CNBlue VS Money battle.. Its really hard to chooosee... T.T

Besides, I found a full-time waitressing job! It was one of the reasons I stop blogging for a while cus I ended work late everyday and I really don't feel like doing anything after reaching home.. Really. Usually I just bathed and sleep. LOL. Let's hope everything goes well and I could master everything soon! 

Lastly, I am so looking forward to my graduation ceremony next month!! Mom said she is considering coming cus the long bus ride is really tiring for her. :/ Really hope she can come cus  dad will not be there and I hope at least she can be there to share my happiness and achievements.. Actually I hope my whole family can attend so that we can take a family picture tgt..and then go for a dinner after that..  Hahahaha! ^^

P/S: Waiting for the announcement of LKY Award winners these days because I guess the results will be out SOON. I really hope I can get it.. This award is so prestigious u knw?! 

Alright... Thats all I wanted to share!! BE HAPPY AND GOODNIGHT!! :*

CNBLUE'S CONCERT TICKETS!!

HEHE!!! YES! CNBLUE IS HOLDING A LIVE CONCERT IN SPORE ON 13RD APRIL!!!!

Since the day they announced it, I have decided to go! CNBlue is my favourite kpop group so how could I miss the chance and not go for their live performances!! They are real talented and I admire them so much! I believe they will rock the stage on that day!!! HEHE! Can’t wait!!

Alright, first of all of course is to get the concert ticket. I am really a noob on this as I have never been to any concert before nor purchasing any tickets online.. -___-

Therefore, I consulted my friend who has been to N concerts before for some advices hahahaha! Finally I decided to buy at sistic counter because I don’t have any credit cards that could do online payment and also I don’t have friends who could help me buy online.. According to my friend, I should go queue up early in the morning like 730am since ticket sales at counters starts at 10am. And go to those really ulu and deserted place so the queue would be shorter.

I have heard of friends and reported news saying that they need to queue for so long or even overnight just to buy kpop concert tickets. Besides since online sales starts 1 hour earlier I am so scared that I couldn’t get any ticket in the end..  But still I have to go and queue to try my luck! :D

SO TODAY IS THE DAY!! Never know buying concert ticket is such a hard core. I was staring at the seating plan for the whole day yesterday yet I still couldn’t make up my mind on which area/ block I want. Hmm yea, so I woke up 7am in the morning and reached the deserted place, Sembawang Shopping Center at about 8+. Hahaha why deserted because it isn’t near mrt station, I meant is not walking distance from any mrt station, we have to take shuttle bus or public bus to get there.

The mall just opened when I reached so I decided to go in and checked if there were any people inside. Near the counter there was a girl sitting there so I guessed she is buying CNBlue conert tickets too! Haha. I approached her and she said her sis is camping in front of lappy while she came to queue just in case. Yea, this is the PLAN my friend was talking about! LOL! The perfect plan to make sure you will get the tickets in the end.

Therefore, I was 2^nd in the queue. Subsequently, some girls came and queue behind us. Overall, the queue was short. Seems I choosed the correct place! (Or CNBlue isn’t that popular?!) HAHA! At about 9am+ the girl in front of me told me her sis just gotten the tickets online and she is leaving! She got those good view seats and she told me seats available left not much only.  I was so jealous! IF only I could buy online tooo..  30 more mins to 10am, I got so bored and talked to the girl behind. She told me she gotten the tickets online too! So now she is q-ing to collect tickets only. She said 2 of her friends doing online purchasing, another friend queue at another place while she queue here. FINE. -.-

LUCKILY IN THE END I GOTTEN MY TICKETS TOO!!! TADAAA!!! Althou I am not sure whether I could see them from my seats but thinking about listening CNBlue live is enough to made me HIGH!!! CNBLUE FTW!! YAY!!

^^V

I AM BACK!!

HI EVEYRONE! I officially ended my attachment in Thailand and so I am unofficially graduated from my 3 yrs diploma course now!!! Mixed feelings..

The past 3 months was an awesome, amazing and enriching one.. I was having a very heavy heart yesterday before leaving and cried so many times while saying goodbye to my lovely mentor, colleagues, dorm sister, chicken rice stall aunties, indonesian friends etc.. I always imagine myself leaving the place happily on the last day but it didn't turned out that way haha! 

In fact, the sad feelings started to kick in after I done with my presentation which was 2 days before I leave. All the memories we all shared kept replaying themselves in my mind. I couldn't help but burst into tears. There are too much I want to share here but seriously I don't know where to start!! I will post again about this trip soon or later after I've gotten all the photos from HT ok! :)

Right now I still couldn't believe I am in Spore alr. LOL. Need some time to adapt. My room is in a mess, my wardrobe is so small, my table seems shrink a lot too. OMG I AM MISSING THAILAND! I've never expect to receive so much love from them so it was a bit overwhelmed for me. :'))

THANK YOU SO MUCH! THANK YOU ALL FOR MAKING THIS THE BEST TRIP IN MY LIFE!! I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET ANY ONE OF YOU. <3

JIA YOU!!!

Time checked: 2:50AM. Yes I am still awake while my 2 lovely roommates are having their sweet dreams now LOL.

More and more and more works started to pile up which include daily journal, the final report, final presentation, uni application stuffs and weekly journal. T.T 

During work hours I was soooooo busy and occupied that I don't even have time for water break so don't mention about writing my daily journal in the lab.. Everyday have to bring the lab notebook back home and work on it. Sometimes might even need to prepare for the next day tasks which include calculations and all. After I done with all these, I must start working on the FINAL LONG report because there is only 3 more weeks left before my attachment end. So yeaa.. Really tired to the max!!! 

On top of that, Spore local uni application is opened so I feel quite stress on the application stuffs because of all the documents submitting, financial assistance application, scholarships application datelines. I am still worrying on how could I pay for the super expensive fees. I told my parents I will get loan but in fact I can't get 100% loan from bank and I don't think I can get any scholarships due to the high competitiveness... Asking dad to pay would be my last choice or it will not even be in one of the choices! Because I REALLY can't do this. I can't spend his savings anymore! Thats my parents saving! How can I be so selfish and used up all their savings just for my education?!?! NO WAY! Work part-time? Of course I will but I don't think its enough thou. Worst come to worst, work first then study? By then I will not have the motivation anymore.. I know myself well. -____- Some says its just an excuse because if you really want to study timing is not a problem.. :/

Ok, anw I should just apply first. Yeap back to the point, like they say u need to submit this by when, need to apply this by when, must send all these docs in, must mail this mail that within how many days after applying BLA BLA BLA. The worse is I am now in Thai.. Have to really ask for help from close friends because it seems like nobody could help me with all these. Parents, siblings, aunties and uncles all aren't familiar with all these thingy. *SIGH*

梦想归梦想,现实归现实. 有时候美丽的梦想背后是一个残酷的现实. 我的梦想真的能够实现吗? 还是我的梦想其实是建筑在家人的肩膀上? 如果是的话, 那我宁愿放弃.可是..我好像做不到.. 我好自私啊. 没有了梦想, 那我是什么? 

我觉得好惭愧. 一直到这一刻, 我还是觉得自己很自私.. 一句要出国读书的话, 让爸爸受了不少苦.家人从来都不觉得这是一个负担, 这让我觉得更加惭愧了! 为什么我给他们的爱总比他们给我的少! 

好像有点写太多了! 哈哈. 晚安!

物以类聚,人以群分

People with similar mindset will automatically cliqued together. Thats roughly what the idiom above trying to say. :)

Okay, shall not begin writing the stories out! Haha if not I guess I won't be able to control myself on where to stop!! 

Let's share something ROCKKKK HERE!!!! CNBLUEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!! WOOOHOOOO!!!

I am so proud to be a Boice!! CNBlue latest comeback was BEYOND AWESOME!!!!! The new album was.. Expected but a bit unexpected? Hahaha! Means still got surprise la! Expected was they are still as rock as before! OH YAY! YORRR! A bit surprised was their song became more mature and I feel like they have 'grown up' a lot in some sense.. Hahaha this is funny. But yea, since all of the members started acting and have individual activities and all. Each of them has their own strengths, talent and attractions. It became so hard to choose a bias!!! Hahahaha as you know my bias was MinHyuk, the drummer but now I LOVE ALL OF THEM. :D

Another interesting issue was that they pay for the stage installation fee and for all the necessary equipments in order to play live on korean music shows!!! These guys are just (Y)(Y). Its so good to see them enjoying themselves on stage. Thats charming enough! 

Let me share you these 2 videos that featuring their LIVE comeback stage with my favourite songs from this album!!!! 

I guess most of you will like the first song, 'More Than You'. Haha because I had this love-at-first-heard feel when I first listen to this song. It is not a rock song so I guess u guys will enjoy it! Can't deny that Jong Hyun voice is sexyyy! And not to forget he composed the song!

Next, the title track, 'I am Sorry' and another song, 'Coffee Shop' were composed by Leader Yong! I think it is not easy for them to convince the company to use their self-composed song as title track!! Anw, these 2 songs are rock style which perhaps not all people like it. U might not like it when you first listen to it but after listening twice, thrice.. It was quite addictive!!

WELL DONE CNBLUE!! U GUYS ROCK!!! ^^

An Unordinary Friday!

TGIF EVERYONE!! Yeap it's weekend again!!! YAY!!!

Today was a memorable day for me...  :)

First, I woke up from a sweet dreams! Haha! I always dreamt of the person I think about before falling asleep.. Sadly, I couldn't recall whats the dream was about!

Secondly, I had a long chat with my mentor, Pee Koy (Pee means sister in Thai!) today while doing work together. The tasks for this morning was rather simple and relax so when we were sitting together doing work, she started to ask me questions about my future plan, studies, family etc. 

She keep telling me don't stress after I told her study in Singapore is very very competitive and stressful. She said if you feel stress don't jump down just come Thailand and study! Hahaha! And from what she told me, admission to Thailand universities isn't based on high school results but universities entrance examination. Hmm, like a stress only?! If you screwed up the entrance exam means cannot go uni?! After that we chat a lot on education stuffs.. Btw, she was so amazed that we all can speak english and chinese together. LOL. I love talking and chatting with her.. She is REAL friendly but when it comes to work, she became a totally different person! HAHA! In fact, all people in Thai are like that.. I realized it during my first week here!! Kinda scary but its their culture I guess.. Just get used to it will do!! :)

Thirdly, our lab department has this new year lunch party so I was asked to join them too!! Yea, I know New Year was 18 days ago.. But they only have the celebration now. LOL. Overall, the food was good especially the dessert!!!! THE SUPER CHOCOLATY BLACK CHOCOLATE CAKE!!! 90% of the cake are dark chocolate!!! SUPER YUMMMMMYYY!! They bought it from a 5 stars hotel... NO WONDER.... Ahhh I will never forget that taste... HAHA! *PMS*

Fourthly!! Due to the long lunch party in the afternoon, I wasn't able to finish my jobs by 5pm.. So I already prepared myself to work OT, although its a friday but I don't really mind because sometimes I really enjoy working alone quietly in the lab.. Peaceful! Haha!

But then at about 430pm, Pee Koy came over and asked me how much I left and insisted to help me to do half of it.. I said don't need as this is my job! But guess what she said? 

"We all end work and go home at 5pm! So why do you want to OT? U must leave at 5pm with us also!" *followed by a bright smile*

I was totally touched by her words. I don't know how to describe it but I feel like.. They see me as part of their 'family' and don't want to leave me alone.. As compared to SOMEONE who asked me why do I always end work on time, Pee Koy is definitely more human! LOL. 

OK. Its not the end yet! After like 20 mins, another co-worker, Pee Ploy asked is there anything she can help too? Then in the end she helped me to set up french press which I usually spend about 30 mins setting it. 

When I was almost done with my jobs, another co-workers, Pee Bim came and helped me to pack my things and clean up... 

A 'THANK YOU' WASN'T ENOUGH TO TELL THEM HOW MUCH I APPRECIATE THEIR HELP AND KINDNESS! 

It was the first time I received so much help from them. LOL. So for a moment, I think they just want me to leave so that they can lock the room and leave on time. Hahaha.. Ok, whatever. They DID helped me and they are all nice people!!! Always share good food with me, talked to me and all. I feel so welcomed in the lab. Haha! 

Time flies! It is my 7th week here!! Although they are passing more and more work for me to do, I am getting more and more stressful but at least I am learning. Thats the point rightttt!! :D

Let's hope for the best for the remaining 5 weeks!! All the best to me! Keke.