DECEMBER～

大家，圣诞节快乐！！我依稀还记得去年的圣诞节，因为一些事情，所以我一整个12月的心情都不是很好。可是相反的，今年的12月，我却感受到了很多的爱。朋友们的爱，家人的爱。我发现12月的确是一个让人能够放松心情的一个月份！（心情轻松到 thesis draft 碰都还没碰 T.T）身边很多人都陆陆续续地到国外旅行，回国后还不忘为我带来手信和分享他们在国外的趣事。因为是学校假期，大家都比较有空，所以也和很多群不常见面的朋友约出来，见见面，聊聊天，确保这些友谊不会被忽略掉！当然，钱也花了不少。。也因为不用上课，最近去shop了不少！等学校开课就没时间去买新衣过年啦！哈哈！对一年才shopping一次的我，可以买到自己很喜欢很喜欢的衣服，当然觉得很幸福！圣诞节当然少不了交换礼物咯！所以今年交换了两份礼物，还很惊喜地收到了一些圣诞卡片！还有还有！昨天我还去探望了我很想念的狗狗，尤其是 Bui Bui！这些小小的事情累积起来，足以让我在这几个星期来，每一天都感到温馨和幸福！（当然也有其中几天不知道为什么，心情会超级低落，我觉得是荷尔蒙的错，哈哈！）

今天是圣诞节！原本打算宅在家，可是姑姑说要出门买新衣所以就陪她去咯！还和二哥碰面一起吃了顿超好吃的晚餐！虽然只是在附近coffeeshop吃的，可是那里的食物也太好吃了吧！超有家乡味的！很感恩！回到家，刷刷面书，看到了朋友们幸福的模样。有的去参加婚礼，有的和家人们一起庆祝，更多的是和男／女朋友嗮恩爱 （闪到我了好吗 哈哈）而有的则第一次公开恋情！还有一位更是宣布她平安夜知道自己怀孕了！！！太感动了吧！我也想要哭了！不知不觉，我一边刷，一边在对着手机微笑呢！

我想，我慢慢地喜欢上了圣诞节🎄！以前会蛮讨厌圣诞节的，因为会一直想说，圣诞节又怎样呢？还不是要一个人过。以前会很喜欢幻想和自己喜欢的人过一个白色圣诞！（现在也很想 好不好！哈哈）可是愿望一直都没有实现。今年，我很感谢自己的想法改变了。没有再对这些事情耿耿于怀。想的更多的是最近发生的所有好的事情，或者想，要和哪些朋友见面呢？要买什么礼物呢？开始会觉得圣诞节是一个让人与人亲近的好机会，是一个开心的节日，是一个‘给的季节’，是一个让人感觉施比受更有福的季节。我也很惊讶自己的改变。虽然今天或多或少还是会感到一点点寂寞，可是感觉不那么强烈，因为正能量超高的！不错嘛 敏儿，这样过活不是很好吗！真的希望自己能够时时刻刻都抱着这种感恩的心态。希望每一天正能量都能打赢负能量！也希望自己能够对自己好一点，爱惜自己多一点！加油！❤️

Comeback

This is Mun Ee's comeback after 2 years plus!! *insert shock face emoji* Hahaha! I am here simply because I suddenly remembered I had this blog ytd night. I think since Instagram, Snapchat all those social medias gained popularity, I have been sharing a lot of my stories over there instead of 'blog' because I am not someone who blog a lot to begin with haha! 

Well, uni life is busy, busy and busy. So time really flies. I am graduating in less than 5 months time! Can you believe it?! Its definitely a bittersweet feeling. Will write more on it when I have the time! Now, I am gna quickly pack my stuff and leave lab! BYE~

PS: I am skipping lab tmr cus bosses are not around and I don't have experiment to do tmr! YAY!

好累...

Woah it have been almost a year since I last blogged?! Implying that my life for the past one year was really very very boring. =.= Indeed, uni life is tough and boring. Honestly I do not have time to join any CCA.. And for this sem I decided to work part time so 24 hours a day really not enough at all!! T.T Or I am really sucks at time management.

Just came back from hometown last week after cny celebration and it is normal that I am still suffering from homesick. Came across this article yesterday and it totally describe what is in my mind. I feel like crying while reading it on the train and I couldn't help but to read it few more times. I believe all the foreign students will have the same feeling as me. Actually what bothers me the most is the financial difficulties me and my family undergoing now. I feel like I am the one who should be blamed because of my selfish decision to study overseas.. I hope we can pass all these obstacles soon and I will not forget how much my parents sacrifices for me. 

Feeling sick right now but NO. U CAN'T FALL SICK!! Stay strong and must study hard MUN EE!!

Btw this is the article I talking about.

http://mp.weixin.qq.com/s?__biz=MjM5MTA3OTYwMA%3D%3D&mid=200010616&idx=1&sn=25728322b8bcb969827d903da345398d&scene=2&from=timeline&isappinstalled=0#rd

献给所有留学在外的我们

其实我们都是英雄

你是不是也在手里攥着飞往国外的机票跟护照的时候强忍着内心的最真实的情绪,不敢去抱一下含着眼泪的妈妈,反而笑着对家人说,放心吧,我可以的,然后一个人推着行李头也不回的走进去.

你是不是也因为一个人独自刚到国外,而一个人忍受着思念,孤单.每天都在跟国内的朋友们聊QQ,你突然发现那些在国内的日子那么精彩,而现在却显得那么的苍白.一个人上学,吃饭,买菜,逛街.一个人租房子,搬家,办保险,递签证的材料.用一种不是自己母语的语言努力的去讲.在看到国内的朋友在QQ上问你,最近怎么样的时候,突然不知道该怎么样回答,你好吗,好像不是那么好,你不好吗,可你真的很好吗,因为你我都不知道该怎么样解释才能被对方消化.

你是不是也开始算计起了生活,去超市买的东西都是挑最便宜的买,因为要花钱的地方很多,房租,水电费,电话费,偶尔还想去下个馆子或者给自己买件新衣服.

你的周围是不是也开始行走着各种各样的人,白的,黑色,棕的.生活里,课堂上,都能体现出文化的差异,从之前的争论,辩解,到现在的忍气吞声.

你是不是也因为熬夜写作业,赶论文,而在打工回家的路上睡过头而走路回家.被打工的店里的老板骂却也只能保持微笑.手就算被烫伤也只能用冰敷着熬到晚上回家一个人涂药.

你是不是也见惯了各种各样的分手的异地恋.主角可能是你,也可能是你的朋友,你想爱一个人,也想被一个人爱.可是看到周围都充斥着二三流的小暧昧时候,你又望而却步了.

你是不是周围也有这样的,她们不再是来时的模样,不再素颜,不再穿着平底鞋,不再留着黑色的直发,不再背着双肩的书包.那些家里有钱的可以每天不打工,可以买很多的名牌,可以整天泡夜店.可是你在心里告诉自己,不要忘记了自己的初衷,不要丢失了那个最真实的自己.

你是不是也发现出国后,发现能够一起玩的人很多,但是交心的却很少.这里的友情能承受住平淡,却承受不了风雨.被那些流言蜚语击中的时候却百口莫辩,一个人背井离乡的遭受各种人情冷暖，接受各种世故做作的所谓的“友情”.

你是不是也因为很多困难,一个人哭过,挣扎过,压力大的快疯掉.这时候,你就当做是上天给自己成长的一个机会,不管什么困难,当你迈过,却发现是那么的简单,你会庆幸当初自己的坚持是对的.你是不是也在生病或者受伤的时候,强忍着不告诉爸妈 ,只为了让海的那边的他们安心，自己一个人吃药,躲在被子里.每次看到从国内打来的电话都会怕,你害怕是不是家里发生了什么事情,知道年迈的爷爷奶奶生病的消息,却只能一个人在房间哭.因为你无能为力.

你是不是也开始不按时吃饭,每天都习惯了吃泡面,或者是便当.偶尔自己做了一次菜,可是却怎么也做不出在家里妈妈做的饭菜的味道,你开始想家,想吃妈妈做的糖醋排骨,红烧肉.特别是在外面吃饭时,看到邻座一家人围在一起热闹的吃饭,这种情绪变的尤其强烈.

你是不是也因为学校跟春节赶到一起,而不能回国,这时候,你是不是总在在幻想着家人们坐在一起吃着瓜子,围着电视前等着看春晚,外面传来鞭炮声,手机开始一条条的接受到那些拜年信息的那些场景

你是不是也在某次回国,当别人问你什么时候开学的时候,你会不自觉的说什么什么时候回哪儿哪儿,而不是当初说的去哪儿哪儿.你突然清醒,原来你是在那儿不是要待一周,也不是一年,你是在那儿生活,到底还要多久,也许连你都不知道,这个时候,突然分不清自己到底是归人还是过客.

你是不是也在傍晚一个人散步,耳机里听着自己喜欢的音乐,看着周围似熟悉似陌生的街景,跟天色渐渐的变暗亮起暖黄色的路灯的时候,自己的心突然就沉沦了下去. 

我们其实才刚刚二十出头,有的人甚至更小,我们可以跟父母家人撒娇,可以告诉他们我们所承受的一切,可是,我们不能这样做,不管这条路是不是我们自己选择的,可是既然踏上了,我们就要不顾一切的去承受并解决在这条路上遇到的阻碍.为了父母家人的期望,为了自己的梦想,乐观微笑的继续坚持下去.

某天清晨,突然的醒来,看着镜子里的自己,多么希望那些记忆就像是自己虚构的一样, 厨房里传来妈妈炒菜的声音并不停的大声的喊你起床,你蒙着被子说,再让我睡一会儿,电视机里传来早间新闻的那个主播的声音,阳光透着窗帘照进了房间.

多么希望这一切都是场梦.……

Hi~~

Hiiiiii OMG I am only back to blogging after so long.... Maybe more than a month? Haha! :P

Alright. So my life was real happening for the past one month. I WENT CNBLUE CONCERT!!!!!!! Ok, it was definitely an awesome one!! I am now recovering slowly from the post-concert-withdrawal-illness!! HAHAHA! I am not going to share how awesome and fantastic the concert was because I know I can't stop sharing once I started!! Just wanted to say CNBLUE REALLLYY DAEBAK!!! Their live performances was so great that it makes me considering going for their concert in Msia this coming Aug!! :))

But this is a CNBlue VS Money battle.. Its really hard to chooosee... T.T

Besides, I found a full-time waitressing job! It was one of the reasons I stop blogging for a while cus I ended work late everyday and I really don't feel like doing anything after reaching home.. Really. Usually I just bathed and sleep. LOL. Let's hope everything goes well and I could master everything soon! 

Lastly, I am so looking forward to my graduation ceremony next month!! Mom said she is considering coming cus the long bus ride is really tiring for her. :/ Really hope she can come cus  dad will not be there and I hope at least she can be there to share my happiness and achievements.. Actually I hope my whole family can attend so that we can take a family picture tgt..and then go for a dinner after that..  Hahahaha! ^^

P/S: Waiting for the announcement of LKY Award winners these days because I guess the results will be out SOON. I really hope I can get it.. This award is so prestigious u knw?! 

Alright... Thats all I wanted to share!! BE HAPPY AND GOODNIGHT!! :*

CNBLUE'S CONCERT TICKETS!!

HEHE!!! YES! CNBLUE IS HOLDING A LIVE CONCERT IN SPORE ON 13RD APRIL!!!!

Since the day they announced it, I have decided to go! CNBlue is my favourite kpop group so how could I miss the chance and not go for their live performances!! They are real talented and I admire them so much! I believe they will rock the stage on that day!!! HEHE! Can’t wait!!

Alright, first of all of course is to get the concert ticket. I am really a noob on this as I have never been to any concert before nor purchasing any tickets online.. -___-

Therefore, I consulted my friend who has been to N concerts before for some advices hahahaha! Finally I decided to buy at sistic counter because I don’t have any credit cards that could do online payment and also I don’t have friends who could help me buy online.. According to my friend, I should go queue up early in the morning like 730am since ticket sales at counters starts at 10am. And go to those really ulu and deserted place so the queue would be shorter.

I have heard of friends and reported news saying that they need to queue for so long or even overnight just to buy kpop concert tickets. Besides since online sales starts 1 hour earlier I am so scared that I couldn’t get any ticket in the end..  But still I have to go and queue to try my luck! :D

SO TODAY IS THE DAY!! Never know buying concert ticket is such a hard core. I was staring at the seating plan for the whole day yesterday yet I still couldn’t make up my mind on which area/ block I want. Hmm yea, so I woke up 7am in the morning and reached the deserted place, Sembawang Shopping Center at about 8+. Hahaha why deserted because it isn’t near mrt station, I meant is not walking distance from any mrt station, we have to take shuttle bus or public bus to get there.

The mall just opened when I reached so I decided to go in and checked if there were any people inside. Near the counter there was a girl sitting there so I guessed she is buying CNBlue conert tickets too! Haha. I approached her and she said her sis is camping in front of lappy while she came to queue just in case. Yea, this is the PLAN my friend was talking about! LOL! The perfect plan to make sure you will get the tickets in the end.

Therefore, I was 2^nd in the queue. Subsequently, some girls came and queue behind us. Overall, the queue was short. Seems I choosed the correct place! (Or CNBlue isn’t that popular?!) HAHA! At about 9am+ the girl in front of me told me her sis just gotten the tickets online and she is leaving! She got those good view seats and she told me seats available left not much only.  I was so jealous! IF only I could buy online tooo..  30 more mins to 10am, I got so bored and talked to the girl behind. She told me she gotten the tickets online too! So now she is q-ing to collect tickets only. She said 2 of her friends doing online purchasing, another friend queue at another place while she queue here. FINE. -.-

LUCKILY IN THE END I GOTTEN MY TICKETS TOO!!! TADAAA!!! Althou I am not sure whether I could see them from my seats but thinking about listening CNBlue live is enough to made me HIGH!!! CNBLUE FTW!! YAY!!

^^V

I AM BACK!!

HI EVEYRONE! I officially ended my attachment in Thailand and so I am unofficially graduated from my 3 yrs diploma course now!!! Mixed feelings..

The past 3 months was an awesome, amazing and enriching one.. I was having a very heavy heart yesterday before leaving and cried so many times while saying goodbye to my lovely mentor, colleagues, dorm sister, chicken rice stall aunties, indonesian friends etc.. I always imagine myself leaving the place happily on the last day but it didn't turned out that way haha! 

In fact, the sad feelings started to kick in after I done with my presentation which was 2 days before I leave. All the memories we all shared kept replaying themselves in my mind. I couldn't help but burst into tears. There are too much I want to share here but seriously I don't know where to start!! I will post again about this trip soon or later after I've gotten all the photos from HT ok! :)

Right now I still couldn't believe I am in Spore alr. LOL. Need some time to adapt. My room is in a mess, my wardrobe is so small, my table seems shrink a lot too. OMG I AM MISSING THAILAND! I've never expect to receive so much love from them so it was a bit overwhelmed for me. :'))

THANK YOU SO MUCH! THANK YOU ALL FOR MAKING THIS THE BEST TRIP IN MY LIFE!! I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET ANY ONE OF YOU. <3

JIA YOU!!!

Time checked: 2:50AM. Yes I am still awake while my 2 lovely roommates are having their sweet dreams now LOL.

More and more and more works started to pile up which include daily journal, the final report, final presentation, uni application stuffs and weekly journal. T.T 

During work hours I was soooooo busy and occupied that I don't even have time for water break so don't mention about writing my daily journal in the lab.. Everyday have to bring the lab notebook back home and work on it. Sometimes might even need to prepare for the next day tasks which include calculations and all. After I done with all these, I must start working on the FINAL LONG report because there is only 3 more weeks left before my attachment end. So yeaa.. Really tired to the max!!! 

On top of that, Spore local uni application is opened so I feel quite stress on the application stuffs because of all the documents submitting, financial assistance application, scholarships application datelines. I am still worrying on how could I pay for the super expensive fees. I told my parents I will get loan but in fact I can't get 100% loan from bank and I don't think I can get any scholarships due to the high competitiveness... Asking dad to pay would be my last choice or it will not even be in one of the choices! Because I REALLY can't do this. I can't spend his savings anymore! Thats my parents saving! How can I be so selfish and used up all their savings just for my education?!?! NO WAY! Work part-time? Of course I will but I don't think its enough thou. Worst come to worst, work first then study? By then I will not have the motivation anymore.. I know myself well. -____- Some says its just an excuse because if you really want to study timing is not a problem.. :/

Ok, anw I should just apply first. Yeap back to the point, like they say u need to submit this by when, need to apply this by when, must send all these docs in, must mail this mail that within how many days after applying BLA BLA BLA. The worse is I am now in Thai.. Have to really ask for help from close friends because it seems like nobody could help me with all these. Parents, siblings, aunties and uncles all aren't familiar with all these thingy. *SIGH*

梦想归梦想,现实归现实. 有时候美丽的梦想背后是一个残酷的现实. 我的梦想真的能够实现吗? 还是我的梦想其实是建筑在家人的肩膀上? 如果是的话, 那我宁愿放弃.可是..我好像做不到.. 我好自私啊. 没有了梦想, 那我是什么? 

我觉得好惭愧. 一直到这一刻, 我还是觉得自己很自私.. 一句要出国读书的话, 让爸爸受了不少苦.家人从来都不觉得这是一个负担, 这让我觉得更加惭愧了! 为什么我给他们的爱总比他们给我的少! 

好像有点写太多了! 哈哈. 晚安!