About My BIG Day..

30 Sept. It is a day that I always looking forward to but from time to time, I wish the last day of Sept is 29..

Yes, basically it is my big day. But maybe not many of you know.. My family don't have the tradition to celebrate everyone birthday. Its just like any other ordinary day and my grandmom will always said: Ohh birthday only marh, every year also have one what.. Whats the point of celebrating.
But for me, I have ONLY ONE birthday EVERY YEAR. 

Every year on my birthday, I really wish someone, somehow could prepare a surprise or at least celebrate for me. What I meant by 'celebrate for me'? 

First, celebrate on my actual birthdate. Not belated or advance? Cus.. that will be someone else birthday not mine. But of course, I really appreciate those who willing to put in effort and celebrate belated for me la.. Like my MB04 buddies.. :) 
P/S: Saarah's cupcakes really NICE AND AWESOME!!! YUMMMYY!!!

Second, I really wanted a birthday cake with my name written on it. As I never had one before.. REALLY!! All along, even when I got a birthday cake, it actually meant for grandmom as her birthday is usually few weeks after mine. Relatives will bought/make her a cake. Then, she will share the cake with me.

Third, candles!! Because I want to make wishes... 

Yea, thats all. As simple as that. But no one have ever done all these to me in my life..

Therefore, I was really emo on that day. My beloved family members all forgotten about my birthday.. My mom, my bros, my grandmom.. Not to mention about presents? Haha..

Then.. I didn't go out to celebrate with my friends too because I cannot say like, 'Hey! Its my birthday! Lets hang out and celebrate!' like that right?? And I don't have friends that would come to my house and give me a surprise that kind too..

SO. I spent my big day watching tv, kshow and drama. At night, I cried until I felt tired and fall asleep.. Cried, mainly because I miss my dad so badly. I webcam with him on that day morning, and the first thing he did was wishes me and apologized that he couldn't celebrate with me for my birthday and also for my good results. He said:"Mom told me you got good results for your final exam.. but how? I am so far away and couldn't celebrate or buy anything for you.. Hmm, I will buy you something and celebrate with you when I am back ok? What do you want?" I was about to cry after hearing all these, actually dad, I just want you. I wish you are always by my side. I wish I could see you at home everyday after I got back from shcool. I am always feeling guilty that you  have to work overseas alone, away from home, away from your love ones, just to pay for my school fees and expenses. I am guilty for my selfish decision on coming singapore to study which leads to a heavier financial burden on you. However, I can't do anything to change the situation anymore nor make a U-turn. So what I can do is to study hard and get good results. I want to make you be proud of me because I am really proud to have such an awesome dad like you..

*PHEW* I feel much better after writing all these down! Maybe you will think that I am such a spoilt kid, or I expected too much from people around me etc.. But this is exactly how I feel and what I think. :)